Here are some things I've realized:
- I will never, ever be able to thrive in a normal micro-managing schedule based on patterns that repeat every day.
- I really, really hate working for people who don't realize that I'm more than a body to fill the void behind the counter.
- Ever since I read Tottie when I was eight, I've wanted a doll house full of mismatched dolls, and there's really no reason why I can't have one.
- I get inordinately attached to fictional characters, and, really, I think that's a good trait in a writer.
- Southern weather just doesn't do it for me, and I'm well tired with living through the allergies just because I'm too lazy to leave them. Or too afraid.
- I'm an introvert, and acting extroverted isn't really a survival trait or a coping mechanism, because then people want me to actually be like that, all the time, always, and it's exhausting.
- I like to eat really good food more than I like to work out or starve myself, so I might as well get used to myself being over 100 pounds. Related: I only know how to cook for crowds, so there will always be leftovers, and it's wasteful not to eat them.
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I'm glad you posted this. I've realized some of the same things you have like,
1. I will never, ever be able to thrive in a normal micro-managing schedule based on patterns that repeat every day.
--No matter how hard I try, I always end up with a crazy schedule.
2. I'm an introvert, and acting extroverted isn't really a survival trait or a coping mechanism, because then people want me to actually be like that, all the time, always, and it's exhausting.
--This is the hardest for me to cope with. Sometimes it's more of a challenge.
3. I like to eat really good food more than I like to work out or starve myself, so I might as well get used to myself being over 100 pounds. Related: I only know how to cook for crowds, so there will always be leftovers, and it's wasteful not to eat them.
--Sort of related, I kind of only like packaged food and junk food. Which is terrible for me, but I've learned to eat more "home cooked" meals a couple times per week. But, still I suck at cooking. I reached a medium with working out though, I find that I like to dance, so I play a couple of dancing videos and dance in front of the screen regularly now.
I'm not completely accepting of myself yet, but so far so good. :)
This is another thing I've learned: You can only progress as fast as your brain can wrap around things, and there's a limit to that. It sounds like you've already made all sorts of progress, and I think knowing where your limits are is fantastic. I like dancing, too, but so far I've been unable to find a way to trick myself into keeping up! Maybe I'll join a dance troupe or something. As for cooking, it's all about process, and the more you cook, the better you'll be!
~:)
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